Marie Antoinette

I started a book called The Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinette. It is fiction but the author is a historian so she used her knowledge of Marie Antoinette's life, and then added some of her own details to pull it all together. The story begins when she is 13 and her last entry is written in jail when awaiting her execution. She is born into royalty in Austria. At that age men come to assess her ability to be married. To their disagreement she tells them she hopes she and her husband can be equal, but they think she will be fine anyway because she is already beautiful. Marie develops feelings for Eric, a servant, who tells her he likes her too. But when she turns 15 she is sent to France to be married to the prince. Louis the fourteenth is shy, awkward and doesn't want to be king. People urge Marie to become pregnant but Louis turns his back to her in bed. A couple years later, Louis unwillingly has a surgery and then they have a child. At the birth of the baby everyone not hopes, but assumes that it will be a boy. To their great dissapointment it is a girl so she needs to have another child. Marie begins an affair with a heroic, charismatic, beautiful, Swedish man. They are completely in love with eachother. Throughout the story, the peasants suffering is alluded to, and so is their anger. The palace gates are knocked down and mud is thrown at royal carriages passing by. Marie's second baby is crippled. Her third is a perfect boy and her last girl is dying. Her lack of morality is shown by the absence of writing on her children. It is clear she loves Axel more than any one of them. She is greedy and angry when the king has to take one of her jewels because there is so much debt.
I don't hate her, but I feel detached from her, as if I am willing myself not to feel  because I know her life is ill-fated.